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[ eric's blog, 6.17.08 ]
Nowadays women just don't know what the fuck they want. Yeah, I say it because it's true.
[ /eric's blog ]

so i first saw that and i was ready to argue. and then, shit, i thought about it. maybe i DON'T know. i mean, i have my short-term, feasible goals:
- finish college
- make sure i don't go broke
- get better at everything i'm already good at, lol

but when we talk big picture? hmmm. nah. i don't know exactly what i want. i can tell you the sketch idea of my future: a job i love (great pay is my second concern, but still a big one), a husband and two kids (preferably sons, but that's up to God, lol), all in a spacious penthouse apartment in NYC.

that's what i want, honestly. besides that? if Kevin called me right now and said "what do you want?" i'd have to do some thinking, lol. but maybe that's just me... i mean, i never had a cookie-cutter idea of what i wanted my life to be at each stage. that's why i don't have a "type" i guess. i have traits that i like and things that i look for, but that's about it.

hmmm.

maybe it isn't about knowing what you want, really... but more about being consistent. like, working towards something consistently and, if your plans/needs/wants change, assessing it and moving consistently towards THAT. idk...

knowing what you WANT is a funny thing, especially when it's tempered with reality, what you NEED, and what you can get.


peace.