ohboy.

did i mention that he leaves in like... three and a half weeks? [pouts] i mean, i get messed up when he has to go back to NJ... Alabama? gawsh...

any old ways, my kids and i were supposed to go see the $1 movie at Magic Johnson theaters on 125th, but it was COMPLETELY sold out... every day camp in America went, geesh... so we splurged and we all went to see Wall-E :D!

Summer Movie Checklist:
Wanted
You Don't Mess With the Zohan
Hancock
The Dark Knight
Get Smart
Stepbrothers
Wall-E

hell YES. two more to go. hopefully, i'll see the last two on my checklist with Kevin. who knows, though. but yeah, Wall-E was pretty damn amazing. there were a lot of underlying messages that the kids didn't get that weren't lost on me. they daggone near ruined the movie for me, though... like... okay, if you see a GROUP of your classmates going to the bathroom and YOU have to go... shouldn't you join instead of WAITING for me to come back and saying you have to go? UGH... between that a certain group of kids annoying the mess outta me. i got free pizza, though, so i'm cool. oh, i also got to cash my two checks... well, i went to RiteCheck and got my government money, then deposited my first paycheck into my checking account. that way, i have cash now and cash later.

oh, so after we got back from the movies and the kids ate lunch, we took them up to the gym to play... so i stat playing basketball and what reward did i get for it? my glasses knocked off of my face and broken into three pieces. [sighs] so i walked around blind for a little bit until after work and then jetted to Lencrafters, since they had a sale going on. it was tough, though - i was still under the one-year warantee, but they also had that sale. so i decided to pick out my frames first before i chose. now... i wasn't looking to spend too much (the last time, i spent over $300 on my glasses, even though they should've been around $400-something) but, me being me, i fell in love with this pair of black Burberry frames. now, i really DID try to go around the store and find other frames.. and i did! i found a nice pair of DKNYs and a pair of... some other brand i can't remember. but i couldn't see myself walking away with any other pair except for those Burberrys. sooooo... i got 'em! lol. because of my one-year warantee, i got my glasses for $234.50, which isn't bad considering that the frames alone were $250. had i gone with their sale, i would've paid $340 and i didn't have that kind of cash on hand. i get to pick them up tomorrow. i can hear my camera clicking already.

what else... uhh... uhmm.. i've been working on not being so paranoid about him and focusing more on when we can be together before he leaves.

i have 24 ticket stubs for Wall-E in my pocket =/

i can't remember the last time i had a vegetable. damn. i need some. maybe i'll head to that tiny little juice bar near my house and get me a giant smoothie before work... i could always work on what i eat, too... i've been cutting down on my Pepsi intake. my goal is to make a serious impact on my dietary habits and my weight by January. i wanna hit up Torrid, David & Goliath, Hot Topic, and a few other choice stores so that i can re-up my wardrobe.

i've never imagined my future as a single parent. never in life. i mean, i was raised in a single-parent household due to the situation with my father, but i never saw being raised by only my mother as the future i would have. i could probably contribute this to the fact that my father was always in contact with us and was an active part of my life and because i was also raised by all four of my grandparents... but my future with my children always... ALWAYS... involved their father being around. i've never considered raising them alone. i don't WANT to be a single parent. and that's not to say that everyone who IS a single mother planned it to be that way... but me? i won't even entertain the idea. i also always wanted kids. always. at least one, but no more than three... i don't think i could handle four. lol, maybe i'll have two boys and a girl... two older twin boys and their younger sister, like 5 years older than her so when she starts formally dating at 15, her daddy and two 20-year-old brothers can come intimidate the guy, lmao. Caleb Asher, Joshua Lee, and Kathy Lynn. those will be my three kids, lol.

on the subject of family... i realized something else. just like my father, i have never been in a "Serious" relationship without sitting down and visualizing marrying the guy i am/was with. i'm not saying that the minute i decide that this will be an exclusive, commited relationship that i'm running to David's Bridal with a plan. nah, it's more like... if i can't see myself with this man for a long-term, then why bother? to have fun? nah... if i'm looking for a partner, i'm looking for just that - a PARTNER. someone whose personality, ideals, and life compliment mine. my ex? ehh... i couldn't see it.. it was really fuzzy... like a play marriage i saw. and, in retrospect, having seen all the things i wrote while i was involved with him, i should've known for a long time that it would be that way. Kevin? hmmm.. i can see it better. i'm not saying that he's going to be the man i marry... but i'm also not saying that he won't be. lol. that'd be kinda cute, though. we'd be a really weird married couple. the kind that you'd hesitate for a few seconds before inviting us to a dinner party, but would invite anyway because we'd liven up the party. the kind of couple that would skip our own wedding reception, only to come back at the end to say goodnight to everyone, lol.

i saw a little boy about 4 years old the other day with his pants halfway down his behind with his momma. smh, that's a hot mess. never in life would my children be dressed like that, ESPECIALLY not in my presence.


i think i'mma watch the last of Black in America, then take a shower and take myself to sleep.


peace.