throwinthetowel.

i can't do this anymore. i really can't.

i can't be at the mercy of Kevin's tantrums and pity parties and mood swings. i just can't do it. and i can completely understand why he's upset, but i cannot understand why he'd take it out on me when i CLEARLY didn't do shit to him. i really wish i could treat him this way, sometimes, let him be the one crying himself to sleep, let him be the one who can't concentrate on his work, who becomes distant from everyone because of how he feels. i love him with all my heart, but i can't take much more of this, emotionally, spiritually, physically, or academically. i don't even know how to think anymore... part of me wants to be done with him, especially considering what he told me today... and then the other part is waiting. one of the 48 laws of power is to play a sucker to catch a sucker... but if playing the sucker makes you feel like a sucker (or actually makes you the sucker)... then is it worth it?


peace.