spinning.

so lately, all this has been crazy.

Wanda kindasortaalmost hooked up with her dude. they decided they both got a lot of stuff to deal with individually before they can be together. it's so adorable. =] now she's talkin' 'bout how we need to work on me and *****. i'm like.... uhhh... i don't know about all that. i like him and everything, but i'm too shy (SHOCK & AMAZEMENT!) to try be proactive and get with a dude i like. so i'm just keeping up with being his friend for now. it's going along well. i think i see something in his eyes, but you never know - could be how he looks at everyone. i'm not stressing it.

so on top of this, these dudes decided to try and come back in my life.
- RJ (La'Ron) said that we don't talk enough... and that he wants to get to a place where i'm comfortabl and open with him. fell asleep on the phone with him same night. ehh. i don't know. i like him, but like... i just don't know.
- Duane and his crazy self, lmaooooo. spoke to him once. been texting him a little bit.
- and, most recently, Kevin. okay, where do i start with Kevin? long story short, he was my friend's date to prom, but we ended up hanging out more than he and she did. my feet were killing me from those heels i had on, so right after the prom he rubbed my feet in the limo ( i swear this other girl got jealous and made a fuss ) and then i fell asleep on him. The afterparty was at South Street Seaport, which was SOOOOOO closed when we got there, so wewalwe walked on the pier, then headed to McDonald's (lmao)where we just sat together and talked for a bit until it was time to go home. fell asleep on him in the limo again. traded numbers, lost contact, and now we're talking again. but i'm like... i don't know. lmao, i swear people make me second guess everything. maybe i'm paranoid or just still dealing with trust issues.

[ text message snapshot ]
me: i mean what exactly is your goal in talking to me? You said we're on the same page, so i'm making sure.
kevin: to get to know each other more until we decide to get into a relationship if that's ok wit u
[ /text message snapshot ]

[ sighs ] i'm trying to be patient and see if something will happen with *****, but at the same time, i potentially (LOTS of emphasis on POTENTIALLY) have a relationship staring me dead in my face. ugh. decisions suck.

i have a headache. >=[

i'm going out to BD with Kara and Wanda tonight. hopefully Ahmar will be working there tonight... and Crystal, too. i swear, they're so damn cool. great people.

why can't i find a shirt that i really want to wear? =/ both of my sweaters are in the laundry... i need to find a good shirt to wear. [ sighs ]


that's all for now.


pAce.