insecurity.

AAHHHHHHWTFWHYCAN'TIEVERBELIEVETHATSOMETHINGCANGORIGHT?!


[ deep breath ]


[ facebook snapshot ]

_____________ wrote:
well hows u n wifey doin ???

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soooooooooooo. two possibilities.
1. she doesn't know they broke up a while ago.
2. he never broke up with her.

and here i am not knowing which one it is.
i'd love to think that he wouldn't lie to me like that... and my fear of him lying honestly is no reflection on him as a person... it's a reflection on me. i don't think he'd lie because he's a bad person or because he's a liar or anything. i think he'd lie because i'm not worth telling the truth to.
urg.

i still want to talk to him tonight. he's going to be upset already since he didn't get any presents from his family and he's going to be double upset because he was supposed to come out today to see me and he didn't. i'm hoping he can come see me this week. his incentive is that if he doesn't, i keep his present, lol. but i wouldn't keep it anyway.

spent last night talking to Canzone for the first time in a REALLY long time. he's still an asshole, lol. it was really funny... we spent the whole time cracking jokes and stuff. he admitted that he has a sex addiction =/ okay. good for you. just don't create a new STD or get anyone pregnant or anything.


meh. the break looks boring from here on out. no one to really spend it with, nothing to really do. i'll end up cleaning a lot. [ sighs ]

i wanna see Kevin!
>:O





pAce.