overthinking.

my aunt asked me in the car on the way to Father's Day dinner if i had a "companion" at school. and i'm like "=/nah, Kevin doesn't go to WashU" and she says "i didn't ask you that, i asked if you had a companion at school"..

my family confuses me and hurts me and makes me mad, shit.

i am very serious about monogamy, even in the context of a boyfriend/girlfriend relationship. i mean, i actually DID try talking to multiple guys at one time and really all it does is complicate shit. i'd rather focus my time, energy, and love on a single person rather than spread it thin for a few. and so many people in my family are all gung-ho and ready to make decisions for me without knowing anything, really. my aunt doesn't like Kevin just because of where he's from. ain't that some bullshit? i don't know... there's a lot to say on the subject and i don't feel like typing about it. right now? ugh... i don't know.

LMAO, yo why did doing math for Chelsie calm my nerves? I'M SUCH A FUCKING GEEK.


peace.

[edit]

why do i miss Canzone?
FUCK THAT.

how am i upset when i bring shit like this on myself? not like anyone tells me to stay up and wait for his call. not like anyone makes me be like this. i do this to myself. and why?

ten-fucking-million dollar question.