remedial.

conference changed my life. that's all i will say. too much of it is inexplicable, and every time i've tried to tell someone how it was, i fall horribly short of really explaining it. so i won't. just know that it was one of the best decisions of my life.

• Kevin's present presumably got lost in the mail. i'm pissed beyond measure.
• i have two papers due tomorrow. i've only completed one.
• i keep getting 75s in Psych Stats
• Kevin's phone is off, which means he probably won't even call me on his house phone. ugh, lame.
• i'm trying not to fall into my usual pattern of coasting between manic highs and epic lows, but it's hard.
• i miss home. i miss my family. i miss my friends. i miss my boyfriend. i miss being at Fall Conference.
  
• i can't seem to pin down exactly what makes me sad.
• i'm supposed to start looking into taking counseling sessions here at the school. [sighs] maybe.
  
• i've been snacking like it's my job.
• i want new clothes for my birthday, but i probably won't get them. i probably won't even really dress up. this is the very first birthday that i won't be home for. it's depressing me already. plus, no one really cares when you turn nineteen - you can't do anything new. i don't even think i want presents. i don't want anything except my family... and maybe for Kevin to visit me, but i'm 99% sure that won't happen.
  

i'm a mess half the time, i swear.
i'll be back on my feet one of these days.


peace.