piecebypiece.

it's a new year. yup. and everyone takes that to mean big, monumental changes. a fresh start.

is it really, though?

everyone gasses up the new year like it's gonna be the time where everything's gonna finally go right. people plan to diet, to exercise, to spend more time with their families, to save money, to move out of their parents' house, to do anything and everything that they've been putting off until the 1st of January. but why? "i'll start next year", but what for? all you're doing is putting off what you want and justifying it by saying that you'll do it when the new year comes around, hoping for renewed stamina to do what you've needed to do for a while. most resolutions for the new year are hopelessly broken.

i used to make resolutions. nothing public, nothing that i'd tell other people (for fear of breaking them and other people calling me out on that), just little promises to myself about what i'd do in the new year. but as time went on, i realized that it just wasn't cutting it. thinking of the new year as a chance to start over wasn't a good idea. why?

because even in the new year, you have to deal with all the things that happened before.

it's not like pressing restart. it's like you turned the game off after an auto-save and you're coming back to it. everything is exactly the same as it was before. every heartbreak, every pain, every disappointment and setback is something you still have to face. just because you were in debt last year, it doesn't mean that you'll suddenly have all the money to pay off your bills in this year. so what do you do?

you stop acting like you need an excuse to change up your life.

it's probably one of the best decisions i've made. i stopped thinking "i'll do this just as soon as ________" and started just doing what i wanted to do. if i wanted to put something off, then i just put it off. goals are good. short-term goals that you are only a proverbial carrot dangling in front of your face are not. they don't do much. i realized that and started just doing what i felt i needed to do when i felt i needed to do it. i wanted to change my wardrobe? as soon as i got the money or the opportunity, i did it... slowly, lol. i'm still in the process. i wanted to change my attitude towards people, life, and myself? i started it immediately. i wanted to get some people out of my life? i did it as soon as i could. it wasn't about waiting until the new year to act brand new. it was about doing what i had to do in order to be the person i wanted to be.


peace & much love to ya.